29 Oct 2015

a letter to my 18 year old self, from my 25 y.o. self

My 25th birthday has now come and gone and I definitely feel like I'm still learning about what life is all about. Therefore, I decided this would be a good time to write a letter to my 18 year old (more naive) self.


So, you're 18 now. That means you'll be starting university soon. University won't be how you imagine it to be: you won't meet 'the one' but you will meet some amazing friends who you'll be friends with for life. You won't enjoy clubbing and that's fine as you'll meet others who feel the same way. And even though you're studying an academic subject, you'll always have that niggling feeling that you're not doing quite what you'd like to be. And that's ok too - things will work out in the end; life's funny like that.

You've come a long way from being the girl who grew up in Scotland and then the midlands of England. Throwing yourself into the heart of London is an achievement in itself and something that you never had second thoughts about: keep this fearlessness as it'll definitely come in handy in the future.

You'll change as a person (for the better) and it'll be a gradual change. They call it maturing and you'll do plenty of that in your three years at university. You'll play more than you worked but that's ok too - you'll get the chance to do university again where you can make up for this.

A lot of unplanned things will happen in the next seven years and although some of them will knock you back a little, you always find a way to pick yourself up. That's because you have amazing friends and family who are there for you every step of the way. Life is unpredictable and you can plan all you like and overthink things all you like, it will always stay this way.

You think you'll have your life sorted by 25 and let me tell you this now: you won't but that's ok. And you'll meet many others who won't have everything sorted by 25 too so you won't be the only one. You'll be just over halfway through medschool but you're doing something you love and that's the one thing that matters the most.

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Have you ever done this on your own blog or in your journal? I use futureme.org to write letters to my future self and it's surprising to read back to see what was important to me a few years ago. Priorities change and I've also changed a lot as a person if those letters are anything to go by!

27 Oct 2015

september and october book reviews: the a list, through a glass darkly, love from paris

Another two months have passed where I've been reading, reading and reading. Most of this reading has been university-related but I still found time to read for pleasure. This time, my completed books are quite a mix...

The A-List by Zoey Dean

The A-List is the first in a series of novels about a group of well-off high school students in Beverley Hills. Think Gossip Girl but set on the West Coast. This review encompasses the first six books in this series (The A List, Girls on Film, Blonde Ambition, Tall Cool One, Back in Black and Some Like It Hot).
Image Credit: Goodreads

I (surprisingly) found myself enjoying the books I read in this series! Everything about the description, the cover and the premise should've had me running for the hills but they were such easy, summery reads (I read them in late August/September), that I didn't mind that the characters were all a bit one-dimensional, the plot a bit predictable (rich, over-privileged teenagers obsessed with their bodies, boys and social hierarchy) and that the setting was completely stereotypical.

Definitely more of a summer read and probably won't be as good when the nights are dark and cold. As a result, it gets a 5.5/10 for me. I must add that I don't think I'm the target age for this series though and that may have influenced my opinion of it! I still have four of the series to read but I think I will leave them for a later time when I fancy a lighter read.


Through A Glass Darkly by Jostein Gaarder

"It's almost Christmas. Cecilia lies sick in bed as her family bustle around her to make her last Christmas as special as possible. Cecilia has cancer. An angel steps through her window. So begins a spirited and engaging series of conversations between Cecelia and her angel. As the sick girl thinks about her life and prepares for her death, she changes subtly, in herself and in her relationships with her family."


I went from reading The A-List to reading something a bit more stimulating in Through A Glass Darkly by Jostein Gaarder, an author I had discovered in my teens.

Although the blurb makes it sound like quite a morbid book, I thought it did a good job of discussing death in a philosophical and thought-provoking way. The repeated visits by an angel allowed the reader to consider what death really means while at the same time, reading the thoughts of Cecilia. My favourite quote from this book is as follows:

'We see everything in a glass, darkly. Sometimes we can peer through the glass and catch a glimpse of what is on the other side. If we were to polish the glass clean, we'd see much more. But then we would no longer see ourselves... All stars fall at some time. But a star is only a tiny spark from the great beacon in the sky.'

Through A Glass Darkly isn't a long book - it only has 154 pages - but it is 154 pages of prose that will make you think about what the meaning of life is and also what death is too. I'm not saying you'll find out the meaning of life by reading this book but it'll definitely make you consider what life means to you. Overall, 9/10.


Love From Paris by Alexandra Potter

"How far would you go for love?

When new boyfriend Jack stands her up at the airport, Ruby Miller dries her tears, jumps on the Eurostar and heads to Paris. She thinks she's going there to visit an old friend and have a total break from romance. But the City of Love has other ideas.

A locked apartment where time has stood still, a bundle of long-lost love letters and a flirtatious French lawyer sweep Ruby into a mystery that spans three-quarters of a century. Who is the author of the letters? Why did the owner of the apartment close up the shutters and flee Paris before the war? And what secret was she hiding?

As the mystery deepens, Ruby turns love detective but it's not long before the ghosts of the past throw her own love affair into jeopardy."


I didn't realise that this book was a part of a sequel until I got to the end! However, it works as a stand-alone book anyway as Alexandra Potter sets the scene very well at the beginning.

Honestly, Love From Paris is a very good read - the pace is good and the plot made me want to carry on reading late into the night. It's a definite page-turner and the mystery of the love letters and apartment made me eager to find out if my own theory was right. I liked Ruby but I wasn't overly fond of Jack as he played such a tiny role within the plot that it made me wonder if his character was even necessary at all.

Overall, a solid 7/10 from me. A great plot marred by a few irrelevant characters and chapters.

25 Oct 2015

my week #184

This week was the start of two things: a new placement of Obstetrics and Gynaecology and the start of my brace treatment. I've opted to go for adult braces or 'six month smiles' and they went on on Friday. My teeth feel a bit sore and I'm on a purée/liquid diet for the time being but I'm staying focussed on the potential end result.


How has your week been?

22 Oct 2015

introducing: daily listing/journaling in november #paperlovestory30days

In the past, I've seen other blogs do a '30 days of lists' challenge or something similar. In November, I'm going to try and journal once daily and what better way through making a list a day? Though in my case, I might do a list one day and then a journal entry the next - the point is, these are prompts :)

I decided to make a 30-day challenge where there are thirty prompts and here they are! Feel free to join in and use the hashtag #paperlovestory30days so that I can search for your lists on Twitter and Instagram :) It's lovely seeing other people's lists. Feel free to re-post the image on Instagram too (I'll be posting it on my account too at some stage) :)


Just to clarify: number 6 includes singers, bands, stand-up comedians, etc, hence the word 'artists'. How you choose to list or journal is your choice - prose, short lists, bullet points; they all count. The main thing is to put pen to paper.

Will you be joining me on this list challenge? Let me know so I can follow you and see what you put on your lists!  Leave me a comment/tag me on Twitter or Instagram :)